Susan LaffertyDoes God see?
In crisis, I cry out. Not knowing how to pray.
Anxious thoughts and inner storms buffeting. Ocean waves pushing me to gasp for air.
Feeling weak.
Does He have a plan in this scary place? Has He forgotten where we are?
Benedict of Nursia (480-547) first formed his Rule for the abbey he served in Monte Cassino, Italy.
Last year I grew curious about what this guide contained. And one particular practice caught my attention. It meant the monks of his monasteries lived on a steady diet of Psalms.
They repeated the entire book each week.
Broken record pleading. Same old insecurity. Inadequacy.
Pride.
Doing a number on my thinking.
Fiery-dart target practice, feels like, somedays.
Age-old questions on repeat.
